Here is a little photo story of the fun day me and Miss EEE had at the Science Museum in London last week. The trip was an experiment in itself. I was very anxious before I left – nervous about the tube, the weather, how she would nap! But I pushed myself to feel the fear and do it anyway. I accepted the invite by another NCT mum and her gorgeous little lady. I learnt during CBT that in order to alter our belief system sometimes the only thing that will work is to test out our beliefs. Do ‘experiments’ of a sort.
Yesterday life got on top of me. Yesterday I cried at work. And you know what happened when I cried at work? Nothing. Nothing bad actually happened. No one laughed, no one commented, no one gave me a disapproving look. I spent so much energy trying to hold it all together because of some irrational fear of the consequences if I fell apart, but, when I did fall apart, I was handed a tissue by my lovely manager and that was it. She told me she understood and that was it. Nothing else happened. I wonder how many other Mamas have been in a similar situation when they’ve returned to work? I bet some of you can relate?